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As a creative writer, one thing you may never foretell about yourself is the probability of losing interest in writing and ultimately losing faith in yourself.


It turns out that it takes a lot of effort, courage and perseverance to keep writing and telling your stories. Frankly, I have mostly lost that zeal to overshare my troubled thoughts using words.

When you've once been a protege to some super-writers, you get reminded pretty often that you're a badass. They say to you, "When would you give us something on your blog?" "Why don't you write anymore?". To these, I come up with the automated excuse that my career is ruining my creativity. 

 

As a medical doctor who was trained in one of the toughest academic hubs of the country, having to compete for excellence with a new bar being set everyday drained me. I had my fair share of emotional turbulences, failed friendships and lost more relationships than I can recall.

That’s just a detour where you read about my problems again. The whole point of my blog is to talk about my problems; a stroll through the head of a dramatic introvert.

Events take place in the lives of everyone, and we find our individual experiences to be unique. However, we do not all have the luck of being able to transcribe our feelings into words.

I have since underestimated how important it is to document my experiences, albeit unique to me.
Life is a sailing boat, or a pot of beans. Okay, that was an unnecessary quote and I just wanted to sound profound.

 


I had a lovely year serving as an intern and creating new memories. New year’s Eve feels like a moment where we all scribble about retrospection, introspection and all the other “-spections”. It all sounds very silly to someone who is unnecessarily uptight about life. Someone like you.


Today, I want to let you know that I choose to write it all down. If you thought this piece of writing about how I’m back in the business of writing would be some important summary about my day-to-day operations in 2023 and how much of depth I’ve been through, then oooopps.

Here comes my signature love and light.







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