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Do you regret it?
Decisions you made in the last few months
Journeys you embarked upon
No one knowing of your destination
Not even you, at times.

Dares you'd sworn to take up
Challenges you beat their odds at someone else's expense
Nights you stayed home to cry
Days you turned off your mobile phones to avoid some phone calls
Or nights you snuggled in rather than hang out?

 Do you regret them?
Those jerks you cursed the day you met?
Lovers you turned to mush before their gazes,
Yet you let go of for the greater good?
Friends you swore allegiance to,
Yet you couldn't help being helpless when they needed you the most?

Do you regret you?
The stupid things you've done
The unsolicited lies you've told
The smart things you've said to mock the illiteracy of some
The words that won
The ones that hurt
Do you wish to change them?
Or you just don't even care anymore?

Do you even still know what it feels like to hear you own heart beat?
To listen intently
To see everything before you
To care deeply
To love into your bones
To be human
A flawed beauty-
Yet, ever a beauty.

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  1. AnonymousFebruary 21, 2019 5:27 AM

    Most of the things you mentioned are self actions. On that note, I have a few regrets. But I regret nothing of what others did to me.

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